Right now I am in a very bad state of mind. I've been playing a lot of tournaments (like I said a post or two ago) and large field ones at that. Big problem there is that they're high variance, and I am running BAD right now ...
Ever since I bubbled the 3R final table, I've been running like shit. That's part of the game, and I'm fine with that. What I'm not fine with is the way I've been reacting to it lately. The last couple of days have been especially bad, to the point where I can't even stand losing a flip anymore (I justify my freaking out with saying that I'm doing it because I know for a fact that I've lost x amount of flips in a row, but that's really pretty unacceptable still).
Not sure what to do. Tournaments are clearly driving me insane and I shouldn't be playing them right now (if I can't handle losing 10 flips in a row, then I shouldn't play tournaments). I should play cash games then, but for some reason I can't get myself to do so. One reason is that the money isn't significant for me unless I play 100NL, but I definitely cannot be playing that right now. At least not on Stars, it's way too hard for me. So therefore I should be switching sites to play the game somewhere else, but I am still so reluctant to do so because I'm in love with the Stars interface. This is so retarded, I should just ban myself from Stars for a month and force myself to play on another interface. I just hate them all so much ...
Even if I do get myself to finally switch to cash on another site, maybe I should play more 50NL for a while.
Biggest reason I know my head is in the wrong place is that I am afraid to let my bankroll go lower than it is for some reason. My financial situation is okay now (I won't have to withdraw anything from my roll) and I got it to $5k, and now all of a sudden I'm like OKAY! It has to stay $5k or more forever! Can't play games that might possibly cause my roll to decrease ... because for some reason I'm overly attached to it right now ... What the fuck is wrong with me?
Just ranting I guess. Ugh.
http://www.flopturnriver.com/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?p=463950#463950
Ever since I bubbled the 3R final table, I've been running like shit. That's part of the game, and I'm fine with that. What I'm not fine with is the way I've been reacting to it lately. The last couple of days have been especially bad, to the point where I can't even stand losing a flip anymore (I justify my freaking out with saying that I'm doing it because I know for a fact that I've lost x amount of flips in a row, but that's really pretty unacceptable still).
Not sure what to do. Tournaments are clearly driving me insane and I shouldn't be playing them right now (if I can't handle losing 10 flips in a row, then I shouldn't play tournaments). I should play cash games then, but for some reason I can't get myself to do so. One reason is that the money isn't significant for me unless I play 100NL, but I definitely cannot be playing that right now. At least not on Stars, it's way too hard for me. So therefore I should be switching sites to play the game somewhere else, but I am still so reluctant to do so because I'm in love with the Stars interface. This is so retarded, I should just ban myself from Stars for a month and force myself to play on another interface. I just hate them all so much ...
Even if I do get myself to finally switch to cash on another site, maybe I should play more 50NL for a while.
Biggest reason I know my head is in the wrong place is that I am afraid to let my bankroll go lower than it is for some reason. My financial situation is okay now (I won't have to withdraw anything from my roll) and I got it to $5k, and now all of a sudden I'm like OKAY! It has to stay $5k or more forever! Can't play games that might possibly cause my roll to decrease ... because for some reason I'm overly attached to it right now ... What the fuck is wrong with me?
Just ranting I guess. Ugh.
http://www.flopturnriver.com/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?p=463950#463950
on April 2, 2007, 4:29 am
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