I have written here before about not regressing, in fact I have done so recently... but I always find a way to do so. So I am going to try and detail exactly why I can't allow myself to do it again and will print this out and keep it next to my computer.

I can't regress again because when I chase losses I always end up playing longer than I say I will. I fail to practice good table selection, I keep reloading, and I ALWAYS END UP LOSING!!! When I do stumble to bed anywhere between 4-6 am I am blitzed. My head is spinning, my eyes are bloodshot, I am utterly exhausted but I can't fall asleep. I wake up and my focus is solely on recouping my losses. I don't eat well. I don't take care of myself physically or of my house. The dishes go undone, the floors unvaccuumed, the lawn unmowed, the dog not walked.

When I am going through a busto phase my body goes to hell. I have diarrhea. I get headaches when I never do otherwise.

When I am going through a busto phase my emotional state goes to hell. I isolate myself from friends and family. I become irritable and unkind. I try to hide what I am doing from my wife in the hopes that I will "win it back" and it will all just be a bad memory.

I can't regress again because I do not have a job to back me up right now. Regression will lead to the loss of trust and support I have built with my poker network and with the most important person in my life - my wife. Regression could very easily DESTROY MY MARRIAGE!!! Regression WILL lead to me losing my chance to continue playing professionally. Regressing will knock down everything I have worked so hard and put in so many hours to obtain.

I CAN"T LET MYSELF REGRESS!!!