I final tabled another tourney last night on Tilt. Nothing huge, but a nice little profit for the night... and it actually goosed my lifetime winnings back close to its alltime high. It also got me to thinking...

At the end of May of last year I was basically at the same point moneywise that I am right now. Which means that I have been a break-even/losing player for over a year now. And that is just pitiful.

I absolutely, positively HAVE to ensure that I am going to stop being retarded and have to REFUSE to give my roll back up again. The roller coaster has to stop, and I have to stop it.

I was looking over my posts and from June to September last year I lost over $15k playing over my head and trying to quickly recoup my losses. By mid September I was back to almost $15 k... I then proceeded to lose basically the whole roll by March of this year and again goosed it back to about 15k playing MTTs that I wasn't rolled for (including my biggest win ever in March in the $50 rebuy on like a $3k roll).

Well, once again the working roll is back over $15k and now I HAVE to make sure I don't lose it again. I HAVE to stick to my gameplan. I CAN"T play over my head. I MUST be honest with my play and my results and move down if I need to. I have to REMEMBER the times I couldn't sleep and wanted to throw up as I fitfully tried to get to sleep replaying how I let myself lose so much $$ so quickly. I KNOW I am good enough to beat this game - the ONLY reason I have not done so to this point is because of ME!!!

Because reading these cyclical posts in the end is just pathetic.